Being living by myself for a while now, and I do almost everything by myself. Pretty independent you may say. However, I am sick of this kind of life. I want someone to hold my hand while doing geocery shopping. I’d like to have someone next to me when I’m seeing a doctor. I want to talk to someone at the end of the day, I want a warm human body lies right next to me at nights. I want to take care of someone.

Those feelings don’t happen often now, but they nearly drive me crazy when they come into my mind. Very often, I just want to go to the local pub and find a stranger, so I can get some short time comfort. How often does this thought come into my mind? I already lost count. It may really happen.