So cold this winter, so so so cold.

So want to have someone I can cuddle to sleep at these cold cold nights.

Nothing works better than a human body as a heater in cold nights.

Again, I should be sleeping in bed at this hour.

Again, I cannot sleep, even though I’m quite sleepy.

Seems like there are thousand of thoughts running through my head.

But I cannot catch any of them and think further.

They just lighted up like matches and then been blown off straight away by wind.

Heart is beating fast.

So fast that breathing seems like a such difficult job.

Maybe I should quit smoking.

And yet, I’m smoking right now.

Yes, I’m hopeless.